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#BelshawBlackOps14 has started – see you in January!

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As I mentioned a couple of weeks ago, as of tonight I’m on ‘Belshaw Black Ops’ until 2015. This personal digital hiatus means that until January I won’t be composing new blog posts, newsletters, or tweets. As far as possible, I’m switching to read-only mode.

If you really need to get in touch, I’ll still be available on my Mozilla email address. But use it sparingly, please.

Here’s what I’m planning to do during November and December:

I realised recently that for around the last 13 years I’ve been thinking on-and-off about something I read in one of Iris Murdoch’s books. I’m pretty sure it was in a philosophical work such as Metaphysics as a Guide to Morals but it may have been in one of her novels. Murdoch talked about not really ever having had a ‘strong sense of self’. I really wish I could find the quotation. Putting my own gloss on it, I’ve come to believe that those who don’t have a strong sense of self are more empathetic than others, but may also have more problems with self-actualisation.

As a result, if I had to sum up the aim of the next couple of months, it would probably be to develop a stronger sense of self. To those people who see me as confident it may surprise them to learn that, for at least five months of the year, I struggle with imposter syndrome and social anxiety. Turning in on myself during some of the winter period allows me to emerge more confident about who I am and what I believe.

Apart from a panel session during the first week of November, co-hosting Maker Party North East, and speaking at a conference in December I’ll be as publicly incognito as possible. I can’t tell you how much I’m looking forward to that. Thanks for reading what I’ve written this year, and I look forward to resuming normal service after my hiatus.


* My father-in-law kindly bought this for me. Thanks, Malcolm!


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